it’s ok to be ok???

things are weirdly good right now. like, really good. i’m trying not to think about when the other shoe will drop.

on friday night, i organized a get-together with all of my friends because i wanted to help a new friend who just moved here meet some more people. after i moved to a new city alone, i was always really grateful for low-stress social opportunities where i could meet people with similar interests, and i wanted to pay that forward. in this case, i suppose the similar interest was me, which is weird, but enough to start a conversation i guess.

the rain forced us to change our plans from picnicking in the park to meeting at a brewery – not ideal for the several non-drinking people in the crew, but, alas, breweries tend to have enough covered outdoor space needed for a group in the rain. for the most part, the rain held off until it completely poured as everyone was leaving. it was a dramatic ending to a really fun night.

everyone had such a lovely time that it was decided we should all get together monthly. i can’t explain how happy it made me when someone suggested that and people agreed we should make it a Thing. i don’t know why i get such a thrill out of watching my friends be friends but i sure do.

the reason i bring up 10Q is that the last question asks you to think about how your life will be different in a year as a result of thinking/writing about the 10 questions. i wrote (if i remember correctly) that i don’t necessarily want my life to be any different, because the circumstances of my life are actually pretty great, but i hope my outlook on life will be filled with more gratitude and less fear. i realized in answering one of the other questions that i am scared of so, so much, and that doesn’t really serve me in any way.

and so, in keeping with that hope, i will happily keep riding this high from a good, fun weekend with my friends and try not to fear whatever is next. i am very lucky to have built a community of wonderful, supportive people who will come hang out with me outside when the forecast says it will rain the entire time. i must be doing something right.