it’s way past my bedtime but i don’t want to go another week without making a post because i think that’s a slippery slope. the past two weeks have been hectic and my grief has been pretty intense at times. i think sometimes i subconsciously crawl into that corner of my brain to escape my… Continue reading ferrari brain
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e-d free-bie
cw: disordered eating well, the rosiness of my last post didn’t last very long. my anxiety skyrocketed this past week, despite that cute lil commitment i made last sunday to be less scared of life. to make matters worse, when i realized that this particular round of anxiety was decreasing my appetite, i got excited.… Continue reading e-d free-bie
it’s ok to be ok???
things are weirdly good right now. like, really good. i’m trying not to think about when the other shoe will drop. on friday night, i organized a get-together with all of my friends because i wanted to help a new friend who just moved here meet some more people. after i moved to a new… Continue reading it’s ok to be ok???
succession’s substance situation
~*succession spoilers below*~ ~*you have been warned*~ i finally caught up on succession this week. i’d been meaning to watch the show for a while, but my friend had warned me that there was a pretty serious addiction storyline. last week i was feeling nice and stable, so i went for it, knowing that i… Continue reading succession’s substance situation
it’s ‘judgmental’ not ‘judgemental’
growing up, were you also taught that if you had a single typo in your resumé, it would be thrown out immediately? i kind of wonder what would have happened to my brain if no one had ever told me that. from that dire warning and lots and lots of other cues from school/ballet/america, i… Continue reading it’s ‘judgmental’ not ‘judgemental’
quit bit
well, clearly i gave up on the whole thursday/sunday posting routine. i was afraid this would happen. i was afraid that, once again, i would get super excited about an idea, fling myself into it head-first, crush it for a little bit, and then get tired and eventually stop. i feel like i give up… Continue reading quit bit
an earnest blurb
i may regret making this arbitrary commitment to myself to publish a post every thursday and sunday, but i’m not ready to give up on that cadence quite yet. i never set a word count goal though (thank god), so i’ll just make this a lil one and honestly i can always delete it tomorrow… Continue reading an earnest blurb
life after death after loss
one day this week, i found two ladybugs on my nightstand right before i fell asleep. TWO!!!! ladybugs are already lucky and i got *two*. then the next morning, my dead ex’s mom texted me out of the blue to send his and her love. if you try to tell me those two events are… Continue reading life after death after loss
sunscreen catastrophe
this morning at the park, i got out of my car, walked about 20 feet, realized i hadn’t put on any sunscreen, turned around, prayed i still had some in the center console, was delighted to find i did, and then u know wtf i did. i slathered it on my face and tossed it… Continue reading sunscreen catastrophe
baby’s first post
do you also feel an immense amount of pressure to absolutely NAIL the first entry in a new journal, even though (in ideal circumstances) you will be the only one to ever read it? because that’s how i feel about this first post. i feel like i’ve got to be hilarious, poignant, and intriguing in… Continue reading baby’s first post